“Sometimes, I just want to say fuck it because I know everything you said was a lie.
Sometimes, I just want to go out, get wasted and high, and forget every memory we ever had.
Sometimes, I want to find someone new, fuck them until I can’t feel anything, and try to forget you.
But most of the time, I just want to crawl into my bed and cry my eyes out because no matter how much you hurt me, I could never do any of that to you. I’m always going to love you. I’m always going to be here waiting if you ever decide to come back.”"
kinda weird that u can think about someone as much as u want and they have no idea